Gratitude at the David Hoffmeister ACIM MonasteryMay 11, 2022
I want to thank Jason, and everyone at the Monastery again for welcoming me with such openness. I’m still amazed that I was granted this possibility to see shining types of the teachings of A Course in Miracles, and for the very first time in an extended while, I do not feel alone.
Element of me wanted to remain longer, but beneath that desire was thinking that I could be doing this for the incorrect reason; as a way to prevent my problems. The stronger feeling was, and is, that my travels will continue.
Before I left, Jason asked if I’d had any insights. What I’m about to share was not yet clear at that time; only on the drive away did it coalesce.
That morning, several lines from a Vance Joy song kept running through my head, “I never must have told you, never must have let you see inside acim teacher. Don’t are interested troubling your mind, won’t you allow it to be?” This confused me as I really could not think of something that I’d stated that I felt regret for.
Eventually, the phrase, “don’t are interested troubling your mind” stood out. This reminded me that probably the most prominent fear I’d in visiting the Monastery was that I would somehow interfere using its residents’reassurance, by just my presence alone. This belief that I really could negatively affect other people’s state of mind has been with me for several years, and has colored lots of my past experiences and relationships.
This fear left my awareness immediately after I arrived. On the drive away it rose again, but I remembered David saying in one of his videos that minds cannot attack. I cried and laughed, and now feel as if the belief is being (has been?) released.
You will find other items that happened that felt important, but I can’t think of them right now.